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Cake day: June 20th, 2023

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  • I think it stuck with me. We were always moving, I’ve had 2 step fathers, both were absolute shitbags. I never had a name in the house with the last stepfather, it was always jerk off, moron, idiot, etc but then always “God I’m only kidding” when confronted. Now I have literally 0 self esteem, I joke that Hitler has more redeeming qualities than I do.

    As far as the always moving goes, even after leaving the house at 17, I’ve never known stability. Because of my lack of self esteem and general stupidity I ended up being uneducated working shit jobs, and am now a worthless factory schmuck in yet another precarious living situation.

    As for the wondering what a happy normal life looked like, I had my mirror image to grow up with. My friend from highschool had the exact opposite life as me, happy family that gave him job opportunities, let him live rent free after highschool so he could go to college, and now he works for Intel and literally sent me a message the other day worried about how he should invest since his company issued stock grew so much he became a millionaire overnight. I’m happy for him, but it’s a real kick in the teeth to see how our lives are so different constantly. He has a house and a family and wants more property, I’m living in a garage and my retirement plan is to eat a shotgun shell deep in the woods somewhere.