I guess that explains why I’ve never had any suicidal thoughts despite some severe depressive episodes !
I did wish I never had to be born in such a cruel world, but I don’t think that qualifies. I still wanted to be alive, but in an alternate dimension where people care about one another.
I think I experienced similar feelings which usually appear when I was comparatively “better” and those times did count as major depressive episodes, according to the professionals I dealt with.
But honestly the way our psyche deals with depression is highly individual and good, responsible therapists/psychiatrists/neurologists/… consider a variety of symptoms before making a final diagnosis. With the exception of a high risk of suicide which will immediately place the sufferer in the “major depressive disorder” category, because of the immediate danger to their lives.
What I want to say: Probably only an expert will be able to tell you exactly what kind of depression you have/had. And I cannot claim to be one. I am simply someone who suffers from it too and I read up about it.
I guess that explains why I’ve never had any suicidal thoughts despite some severe depressive episodes !
I did wish I never had to be born in such a cruel world, but I don’t think that qualifies. I still wanted to be alive, but in an alternate dimension where people care about one another.
I think I experienced similar feelings which usually appear when I was comparatively “better” and those times did count as major depressive episodes, according to the professionals I dealt with.
But honestly the way our psyche deals with depression is highly individual and good, responsible therapists/psychiatrists/neurologists/… consider a variety of symptoms before making a final diagnosis. With the exception of a high risk of suicide which will immediately place the sufferer in the “major depressive disorder” category, because of the immediate danger to their lives.
What I want to say: Probably only an expert will be able to tell you exactly what kind of depression you have/had. And I cannot claim to be one. I am simply someone who suffers from it too and I read up about it.