Recently I have tried to do this “touching grass” thing, again, and it’s difficult. Any fleeting joy of participating in this thing we call society, the moment I notice a homeless person struggling, it just evaporates. How can I enjoy participating in social events when most of them involve exchange of goods that could have been used for the purposes of helping those in need?
Do I need to donate a certain % of my income and then I get a pass? Well I don’t have an income, how much do I need to give then? Should I deduct a % of any money I get and set that aside for donations? Should I donate to local causes or international? Who gets the priority? Can I justify spending any money on things like a movie ticket to see a movie with friends, why so? What makes me more important than the person struggling on the street right next to the theater?
Are there any resources or guides you could point me towards? Is this something you’ve struggled with and found ways to cope with it? If so how have you managed?
(edit: I made an update in the comments. )


Yeah I am having a hard time keeping it together. I’m sorry it’s not your fault.
Anyway from reading your other comments in this thread it sounds like the thing that’s bothering you the most is your paperwork / identification. It’s also likely there are LGBTQ legal aid volunteer programs in your country that will help you process the necessary paperwork and possibly assist with financing it.
So if that isn’t impossible to change, keep job hunting and save the finances and get it done. You aren’t screwing anyone over by prioritising yourself. Not sure where you’re at, but surely it isn’t a completely insane amount of money
best of luck