This is so stupid, and I hate that I feel this way about a meme picture😖.

I was wasting time at work on the bad site and in the comments I saw this picture of bugs, which immediately made me freeze. Like its just a stupid picture but I look at bugs face and I see exactly how she feels. You can see and feel the worry on her face as she watches the viewer observing her. I immediately empathised with her worries:“do they see me as a joke? As something to be pitied? With hatred and disgust? Can’t they just look at me and see me like any other woman? Did I miss a cue? Is it obvious I’m a faker and I’m just embarrassing myself?Will they shout phony? Will they hurt me if they know? How will they do it, with words or with force? Why can’t I just be this way by birth and never have to think about it? Why is every moment so filled with shame and self hatred”

…like this is a dumb meme picture posted for a laugh (which hurts more) and I’m certain that none of this is actually intended. But through the filter of my brains denial and shame, its a Mona Lisa of my own suffering that hit me like a sucker punch in the middle of my work day