For reference I’m a 23 year old trans woman that has been on hrt for 3 years. I usually don’t experience this feeling watching transfem content, but cis women still regularly make me deep envy. If anything trans women are the only women I’m not jealous of lol. The idea that my body wasn’t just like that naturally and I have to extensively modify it to even reach a rough approximation can be really upsetting at times. I will admit that a lot of my envy is caused by not their bodies themselves, but the fact that they get to be that way with zero effort or pusback from society. They don’t have to take meds to look that way, and nobody is trying to stop them from being women.

I live in the US and the threats to take away trans healthcare or make it prohibitively expensive have only exacerbated my envy of cis women. There’s a lot of existential dread surrounding the fact that my femaleness is maintained only by a “benevolent” insurance system where most choose to cover hrt and bottom surgery. They could decide to stop at any point and then I get medically detransitioned. Being cis feels extra privileged at the moment. But yeah, seeing cis women go about their day being happy and beautiful and successful has made me stop consuming certain media and has actually brought me to tears, so I understand the feeling. Seeing cis lesbians in the media is probably the worst for me because I feel some insecurity about being perceived as a “real” lesbian or belonging to that culture.

I’ve been on hrt for 2.5 years with good levels and I’ve never experienced the fabled girl orgasm. It definitely feels different from how it used too, but I still have the same refractory period, and the feeling is typically still pretty focused on my genitals. It might be slightly more extended through my body and last a little longer, but they also feel less intense than before. Feels more like a sidegrade than an upgrade to be honest.