It’s kinda hard for me to say, tbh.

I don’t really know if a lot of my issues are comorbidities with the heaps of other health issues I have, but I feel like autism has definitely prevented me from doing a lot of things I want to do. For instance, from what I read, there’s been a lot of talk about “autistic burnout” and I think, if it really what I’m suffering from, then it will cause me so many problems (it’s already causing me a lot of problems, but I dread the future.)

I also have a lot of serious mental health issues, and I think a lot of it can be attributed due to the fact that trying to interact with “regular” society has netted me a lot of pain, suffering, and trauma. I also have extreme confidence issues resulting from so much allistic reprimand, where I have a compulsion to believe everything that I say or do is wrong / incorrect, and it’s a living nightmare where I second guess myself all the time and react negatively to criticism.

Overall, my autism has (and probably will) cause me so much trouble and suffering both now and in the future. If I had the chance, would I reject it? Not really, even though I have never beared it’s supposed fruits (people have told me that autism can “help” but I have many doubts) and have only experienced a constant stream of anxiety and pain, but I don’t think it’s inherently negative. Like @SuperZutsuki@hexbear.net and @lilypad@hexbear.net said in this thread, it’s really an impediment brought about by material conditions rather than any hypothetical inherent badness of autism.

I don’t want to vent too much, but yeah, I do consider it to be a disability, and it will probably bar me from many tasks - both necessary (jobs) and recreational (art).

Thank you for all the responses! I feel like replying to everyone individually would be spam-y, so I’ll just say you’ve given me a lot of information to work with, and I’ll do my best to internalize what you wonderful people have said!

While I would, I don’t really feel comfortable making a GitHub account (even if anonymous).

At that point, I literally just don’t know. I wasn’t even trying to argue in the original post, I was just trying to explain why it happened, and I guess my explanation wasn’t thorough. If my guesses aren’t good, then I’m clueless as to why this post was made ig.

Yeah, it was a fuck. I agree with you that ultimately, there’s no point of a fuss.

Try to enforce that mindset, I guess. Maybe make a required “wait-to-post” feature where, after typing the last character, it requires you wait a duration (3-8 seconds) before you can actually hit post? That’s spitballing, and I can very easily see that being a bad idea, but it’s something.

The only real thing I can think of that would solve a lot of issues is if people were more cognizant. It feels like a lot of people (including myself sometimes) just write something and then hit post. It’s easy to do, but it also has huge consequences in some situations. That’s why I try to make it an effort to constantly think through my posts and be careful about what I say, lest I make mistakes. I’ve drafted long posts before, and never posted them because I realized just how bad it’d be.

If other people could pick up this mindset, a lot of issues I think would be solved.

Also, adding onto this, I think I might be getting myself into something MUCH larger than myself. I tried to make it a point that I observed these kinds of things, but unfortunately I’m not the best historian. And, by communication, I don’t necessarily mean that people weren’t talking, it’s just that not much was being transferred to my observation.

Well, off the top of my head, people were REALLY, and I mean REALLY pissed off about the whole Dunk Tank struggle session.

Also, sorry if I’m causing any trouble, not the intention, but I do apologize if I am.

The right spark at the right time, that’s what.

Not trying to say the outrage was justified, but I saw there were a lot of prior outrages, and there was almost zero communication. The gunpowder of unresolved grievances meeting the lit match of a minor struggle.

I’m gonna say this. I was a lurker for a lot of struggle sessions. My lurking could go back to at least a year, but my memory is extremely fuzzy about that stuff.

I think the issue is, for lack of a better word, solved. Some more discussion could be useful, and from what I heard, the admins are planning on it, but what’s done has been done, and as far as I understand from a different perspective, the issues have been mostly rectified. Zionist mods / admins? Nakoichi got demodded and apologized. Lyudmella also apologized to my understanding. To those apologies, all I can say is that what’s done is done. The consequences linger, but the only way to fix those consequences is better action going forth.

And you know what? It seems like better actions have been done. There really is no other way to heal social wounds than to never commit them again and to let the positivity of future interactions and the march of time keep moving forward. The emoji got added, LoveYourself got unbanned, and I’m sure the mod team had a discussion about it. It makes sense that LoveYourself doesn’t want to be here anymore, as it’s a very fucked up thing that happened to LoveYourself.

And to that, all I can do is repeat myself. Discussions can be made, things can be clarified, new systems made, and old systems overhauled. But at the end of the day, there’s no other solution than to not do it again. I like to believe they saw that people didn’t really like what they did, and it’s fermenting in their brains. Hopefully they learn, they grow, and we can all forget this. I mean hopefully, though, as this can go any number of ways. While I want to put stock to the hopeful path, I have no idea what will happen. To be reductionist about it, I just hope that good things happen and bad things don’t happen.

I hope so, if not for my own sake, then everyone else’s.

Anyway, thank you for your faith in me, comrade!

I don’t really agree.

I feel like, solely due to the fact that this is a social space where I’m somewhat meshing with other people, I’m really throwing myself in hard and investing into it without being cognizant of the consequences of my actions. Despite talking about how I really want to actually do something during my time here, I’ve kinda just been unthinking in my usage of this platform. I don’t really know what to call it, but I don’t consider it healthy, or as you said, “well.”

Yeah, upvotes are a fuck. I’m addicted to them too.

My policy has been to upvote literally everything except it’s a particularly egregious or disagreeable take, so I can make sure everyone has at least one gold star.

While I’ve heavily participated in communities I’ve created, besides a Discord (which I don’t really use and probably should get around to deleting) and some game accounts, this is literally my first social media presence beyond “lurker / minor participant.”

I can guess it’s surprising, but my antisociality and shyness has, for the longest time of my life, extended to the internet as well.

You don’t have to define it to be able to beat up the person who said it /s

LangelyDominos said “poisoning the well” and while I kind of agree, I think the fallacy is just straight up bigotry. Poisoning the well is defined as “presenting bad things about a person to discredit their argument” when there is no facts presented in your case. It’s literally just “Don’t listen to this person, they’re an other!” Of course there’s more nuance, but the key thing is that there’s stereotypes about your group, and they’re appealing to those stereotypes rather than the factual realities of your oppression. /srs

Do not ignite your golems. Worst mistake of my life.

On a scale of 1-10, how decrepit was your sloop?