There is Matrix but no XMPP :(

I always remember this game when I use elevator in the building where I live

Well it depends on your gender dysphoria. Different people have different levels of dysphoria. I described generic case when you are free from misgendering from government when you don’t feel pressure anymore and can reconsider your HRT (but of course it depends on many things).

Viagra is just a fancy name for Sildenafil. So it’s basically the same thing. Rising testosterone level will help but I recommend it only after legal gender change.

When I learned about TacticalOps and Infiltration I started to not understand why people keep playing CS while there are superior games out there. Something is wrong with this world.