I started a free writing journal to help generate ideas and learn to get a little more creative. It’s basically just a regular journal at this point, I just write in it whenever I have a thought that I feel I should keep. It’s been invaluable for coping with mental health stuff too. I don’t think I’ll ever stop, it’s not something I have to force myself to do any more.

I’ve got mini metro, something called shapez that I’ve not played, functional ear trainer which I’m classifying as a game cause it kinda is, and NYT games which is the only one I play regularly.

If you haven’t already done it, Pat (the Bunny) put all his stuff on archive and he’s far from the only one.

Not everyone likes the way these images are built, but the liinuxserver.io containers are so easy to use. You can replace so many cloud services using these, I’ve replaced:

• All streaming platforms
• Google drive
• Google photos
• Every note app
• The library (sorta, I just host an ebook server for manga that won’t fit on my reader)
• Grocery lists
• Exercise tracking apps

Plus I’ve setup some awesome new stuff like a website for one of my collectives and a few things to automate server maintenance.

You need somewhere to host your services (I’m using an old PC) and a little linux experience, but it’s absolutely worth giving it a crack. I might work in the industry but I learnt more making my little server than I ever did on the job.

I was literally joking about “body horror voltron” with a friend yesterday

I stopped using Reddit when I joined Lemmy, but I’ve still got a Facebook account because the family chat is in messenger, and I use Instagram because that’s where a lot of important information about things like rallies and mutual aid are disseminated (it’s a bonus that it’s also where I find cool gigs too).

I’ve also got Tumblr and mastodon, but I don’t use them much at all, I live here more than anywhere else.

Oh wow, I wasn’t expecting that! Sounds like fun

I figured as much, but I thought OP might be looking to recreate the childhood experience.

The saddle club is a book series iirc. I just remember the TV show being popular when I was a kid, but I’ve never been a horse person so I can’t say if the books or show are worth it.

Sometimes it can be fun, I’ve had a fair bit of fun during some rallies by handing my megaphone to loads of different people, we had a counter protest back in April that turned into a dance party too.

I’ve also been to plenty of scary ones. I had one where I had to run away from violent cops and change into a different outfit behind dumpsters. Sometimes the adrenaline can be fun if it’s a more spicy action, usually the nerves go away once you get started.

Patch making, and I’ve no idea why people are surprised about it tbh. It’s really easy if you’ve got access to a printer (or you can trace from a screen) and a pair of scissors.

That said I have a slightly unusual process where I design stencils in fusion 360 and then print them on my 3D printer, they’re durable and reusable that way. I’m still working on improving the final print quality, but I’ve had some really good results like this gigantic Ash Bricky back patch that took me ~20 hours over three days.

The few times I’ve been around for the organising of live streams, we’ve either done it directly to our own socials and/or an independent journo might come and either stream or record some stuff, but I don’t think I ever got their names when that’s been organised ahead of time.

At one I attended, the organisers provided burner phones for people to livestream an action, I believe to their personal accounts? I never saw the footage of it though.

I met a guy called Big Al on a family camping trip and he was pretty cool. He was the first hippy I ever met, living out of a van and trailer, solar panels all over the roof and making some money selling bags made from men’s ties.

I don’t really remember what he did other than maybe teaching me a fishing knot, maybe feeding me and showing me some cool stuff. At the very least, it’s a very positive memory and possibly part of why I love the off grid dream.

No clue where the image is from, sorry.

Yeah, figured it would be something relativistic like that, I was just looking at overall power to do that back of the envelope calculation. Considering how high the energy is at ~0.25c, it makes me wonder what the average particle spacing is in the jet at that diameter.

I expect a lot wider too, the jets will diverge of course so it’s going to depend on how far away from the star you’re measuring. I just took 0.05lyr because it’s a size I had a very shitty source for hahaha.

I did a little snooping and found someone claiming to have a source on the diameter of a jet, but their link went nowhere. I think it’s this though. Anyway, at 0.05 light years across and presumed circular, a human body purposefully over estimated to have a cross sectional area of 2m^2, would be subject to 28.5 gigawatts.

Wolfram Alpha very kindly points out that this is the equivalent of nearly two and a half space shuttles blasting you, boosters and all. Good luck!

I’ve no idea how accurate this is, but googling gave me an estimate of the energy required that suggests it would take a little less than three seconds to vaporize an entire body. If it can create a plasma, that counts as subatomic in my books, but I’ve no idea what that would take.

Nuclear would depend more on the particle kinematics and I’ve got no intuition there tbh. I’m sure it’s certainly possible though, especially if you get close.

I have a playlist called “Loud Sleep” I put that on, crank the volume up enough that I can’t hear my thoughts and wait around until I’m so exhausted I either fall asleep or get sleepy enough that I take them off and pass out. I specifically use Skullcandy crushers so I crank the bass waaaaaay up and let it vibrate my skull.

It’s just a bunch of They Might Be Giants’ more aggressive/loud songs and a couple that mean something to me. It’s not really about avoiding feeling stuff, it’s all intended to make me feel more, just without as much thinking. It’s kept me alive on some really bad nights when I felt like all I could do was die.

Imposter syndrome because the people around you beat you to coming out is real and sucks so hard. It happened to me, I watched a couple of my friends go through the exact same thing after I came out and it happened in reverse to an acquaintance when I heard someone angrily complain about said acquaintance coming out after them (it was unbelievably toxic and nothing I’ve seen before or since).

One of the closest people in my life literally hit me with the “just asking for a friend” to see if they’re allowed to be non-binary without taking hormones like I do. Even with all the reassurance in the world it can take a long time. It’s so so hard, being trans often means overcoming an enormous amount of self doubt and all sorts of internalised nasty things.

You’ve done an amazing job navigating everything. I’m so proud of you and it only gets better from here, I promise.

Thank you for existing ❤️

Thanks, I appreciate that a lot ❤️

I’m going through some really awful stuff at the moment, and it’s hard to feel proud of anything when I absolutely despise myself, but these are things I managed to convince myself are okay:

• Surviving this. I’m working very hard to get better, I have lots of regrets and getting better isn’t for the reason I want it to be, but I will succeed
• I helped start a transgender solidarity network, our first rally was the proudest moment of my life
• That time I tried to stop a coal ship from leaving port (it didn’t work but it did do a lot of other important things for the rest of the protest)
• I make a really mean creamed cauliflower and I always feel super proud when I get to make it and hear all these strangers say how good it is (it’s the easiest dish in the world, people are just addicted to salt)

I’ve got unclockable’s bra buds and they’re pretty good when they work but it’s been hard to find good bras and they can be a pain to keep in place. I’ve come home a few times only to realise they’d completely left the cup without me noticing.

They’re supposedly like implants and tbh they’re pretty convincing when you get them in something good, I really like them I just wish I had more than one bra for them…