SoyViking [he/him]

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Cake day: 2020年11月4日

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  • We had a lovely Halloween, we took the smaller kids trick or treating in a part of town where people really put stone effort into it. Our oldest kid went to a party with her girlfriend, they had a nice time and by all accounts.

    To make things even better, we were dog sitting and the dog, who is usually afraid of men, seems to like me.

    Halloween seems to me like one of those things that showed how, if left to their own devices, people instinctively get the value of community. There’s nothing in liberal economics that explains what makes people spend a small fortune and significant time and effort to turn their garden into a spooky ghost house for local kids.








  • A while back I bought a tiny bar of Dubai chocolate from my local Arab store to see what the fuss was all about. I love chocolate and I love pistachios. Chocolate with nuts is nice. On paper I should like this.

    The bar was pricey enough but it was a completely underwhelming experience. The filling was a greasy sugary pistachio cream with a very faint flavour of pistachio that was completely drowned out by the chocolate. I might have been unlucky with the specific brand but I did not feel that it was worth the money they charged for it. A bar of chocolate with hazelnuts or gianduia would have been better.





  • I don’t have an official diagnosis but I wouldn’t be surprised if I could get diagnosed with some mild form of autism. I have been diagnosed officially with ADHD which I understand to have a significant comorbidity with autism as well as with avoidant personality disorder which also sounds like it has something in common with autism. Anyways, a lot of the experiences I hear autistic people talk about resonate with me.

    In one way, this is just the way I am. Yes, I focus intensely on things that interest me. Yes, I don’t give a fuck about social drama. Yes, I am more reserved than most people in social situations and they do seem to ture me more than most people. Yes, I’m really bothered by some noises and textures. Yes, I am absolutely allergic to bullshit and hypocrisy. That’s not a disability — at least it shouldn’t be — that’s just how some people are. People are different, that shouldn’t be pathologised.

    But on the other side, this is certainly disabling in practical terms. A lot of the things that sucks and has sucked in my life can be active to me being a bit different. I would have fared a lot better in a kinder, more rational society but even then many things would have been harder to me than to must people. Most of the time growing up I was asking myself “why can’t I just be normal?” and to a large extent I still do. Feeling like I’m standing outside looking in seems to be an existential precondition for me and that is a very lonely and frustrating position to be in. Struggling with social interactions doesn’t mean they’re not important to me and being unable to form and maintain them at a “normal” extent has been a constant source of misery for me as long as I can remember.