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So… Just like general-purpose software development? I hope you get to work without LLMs.

Should be “wið”, no? 😉

“You can’t control X” is not the same as “X is your fault”. Earthquakes, for example, aren’t your fault. I notice that people infer blame quite easily in response to statements such as these. I know I had to train myself out of this and in moments of stress, I fall back into it.

“Only you can choose to ignore what they say about you” is not the same as “It’s your fault that you care about what they say about you”. It’s true it’s up to you to learn how to ignore others’ opinions of you, but that doesn’t mean you deserve blame for the patterns in your mind. Maybe you are and maybe you aren’t. Maybe it doesn’t matter. Maybe it only matters what you learn to do from here, which probably depends on finding adequate support. I hope you find it.

Your thoughts and feelings are not wrong by definition. Unhelpful, maybe. An obstacle, perhaps. But not wrong. They can’t be wrong. They just are. They simply exist. The question becomes how to find the tools to make sense of your thoughts and feelings, as well as to let go of the unhelpful and pick up the helpful. That’s what I’d expect from your therapist: to help you do that. I’m sorry that you haven’t had that experience.

“You just have to deal with it” seems utterly unhelpful to me, but “You’re ultimately the one who needs to find ways to deal with it” seems undeniably true to me. It’s not easy, but nobody else can do it for you. And you’re ultimately responsible for the determination it might take to get there.

Those are my thoughts. I hope you find something helpful in there somewhere. Best wishes. Peace.

I have settled into this pattern:

1. Name expands as I understand better the structural role of a thing. Duplication in names begins to become easier to spot.
2. Removing duplication in names means introducing helpful structures, resulting in shortening names again, particularly as the intent/purpose of thing becomes clearer.

Long names stay unnecessarily long when we don’t notice the patterns that suggest the missing structures.

The more examples of this kind of thing, the better!

(And my preferred name for that is rolesByEmployee. In general, “values by key”.)

It’s much more likely that we sound like children than we sound like an LLM.

Low feels more numb than dark. More like being on pause than everything is terrible. More “I’ll try again later” and less “this is never going to get better”.

I don’t remember the transition. I can’t tell you how long it took. I was only on antidepressant medication for about 18 months.

Peace.

The section entitled “The Secret Sauce” is the real magic of this article.

Apps aren’t a problem, but they’re also not a guaranteed solution. If you don’t actually do what needs to be done, then it isn’t working.

I use Spectacle for taking screenshots and I’ve enjoyed using it for several years. After that, I’d crop it in any image editor that has a freehand selector tool. Gimp would be the first thing I tried, but I’m sure you could find something easily enough.

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Hur fan säger man “Naturalistic Fallacy” på svenska? Det har jag inte än lärt mig.

Good news, relatively speaking.

I’ve been where you are. Most important: don’t let yourself start to take responsibility for managerial decisions. If they want you to stand in the corner on your head and cluck like a chicken, it’s their money. 🤷 Don’t let that change how you see yourself as a programmer.

And roll your eyes in private.

Is this a problem for you or merely annoying? I mean the difference between you being blamed for their poor results and you merely being inconvenienced by doing extra work.

You might need to train yourself to accept the situation as it is and hope for someone in authority to make things better. It’s not easy, but this might be a good chance for you to build that skill. 🤷

Can you talk openly with your manager about this situation? Would it be helpful to you to propose to your manager that you help that group? Maybe your manager would appreciate your attempt at leadership.

Good luck.

This is the kind of paradox that leads us (I mean humans more generally) to look for some fundamental assumption we’re making about time that will turn out to be wrong. I assume that’s true although I wonder whether it’s literally impossible for us to even imagine how time “truly” works, let alone measure it.

I was a kak user for several years and am giving hx an honest try this year. So far, I’m quite happy.

(and yes, I’ve been both an emacs and vim user.)

hx

I meditate. Very occasionally, I still am not ready to sleep, but it still helps me to do that.

I listen to a podcast, if nothing else works.

Mostly, I don’t worry about not sleeping. It took me years to feel OK with not sleeping, but here I am.

Peace.

Hilarious that they misspelled “failed” anyway.

Dumb question: do you have a key on your keyboard that disables the microphone? I don’t have my laptop in front of me, but I know there’s a key that disables the trackpad and another that disables the camera. I realized that I’d accidentally hit those by going through something similar to this.

Good luck.

Kat.