As a normal person with ADHD but otherwise neurotypical, I have a hard time communicating and functioning with my partner.
How do I better deal with the communication issues and honestly she entirely lacks a way to talk, express feelings, be deeper than basic interactions.
My new girlfriend is on the spectrum not high up and at first glance functions fairly normal to onlookers.
But privately and when being close or open its like she says she has a social battery but its always drained according to her, she doesn’t sleep good. Has depression and horrible anxiety. She feels scared to make moves intimately but wants to, whether it’s kissing, sexual, or in general even hand holding.
But she deals with major issues of over stimulation like talking or touching when emotions get higher or more complex she defaults to blocking people out and going into herself.
Overwhelming emotions all the time that she cannot explain or process no matter how much she tries writing to me, to be alone and think about them so we can properly discuss, the only answer she comes to is IDK. It’s like she can’t explain emotions and feelings almost at all. Which makes any understanding or functioning insanely difficult borderline impossible due to the one way nature my input and none of her output. She struggles to explain basic thoughts and doesn’t like trying or will attempt to try and get frustrated and upset or scared to try entirely. Which further increases the overwhelming feelings and discomfort. It leaves a void for us. She wants nothing but to do better and grow together but feels trapped in her autism cycle. I know it cannot be changed but I can certainly improve on how to process the situation and do better on my part.
How/what can we introduce methods to better communicate? (we tried writing letters and texting but she can’t explain things and gets confused/frustrated/upset so that is out)
What systems can we introduce and methods we can try improve these feelings?
What are some of your best advices and methods for a normal person to be educated and productive when dealing with an autistic person? So I can be a better partner too.
I am struggling to understand, communicate, and find ways to function cohesively together because for me it’s like… why can’t you try to explain things so we can improve but it always lands into a negative set of emotions. Where she feels sad, cries, gets mad, blames me, depression, anxiety, she’s constantly never ending overwhelmed.
I greatly appreciate the help. I will have open discussions with each of you as needed. Thanks for taking the time to help a normie out!
Edit: Perhaps that was way over stated. All our interactions are not negative but for the sake of the post I was focusing on those aspects to find tools to improve myself and her ability to communicate more effectively.
In no way shape or form are our interactions as basic as that sounded. We function almost entirely normal. Do normal activities, go places, hangout, work and hobbies. When I meant basic interaction I don’t mean she sits on bench and cannot function. I just meant anything outside of typical day to day like intricate displays of emotion or communication about our relationship issues is where the wall hits. Its not trust. Or as dead sounding as that seemed. Its that she lacks ways to articulate her emotions and what to say. Has issues processing.
I was looking at for tools like the emotion wheel. Similar methods. Not a psychological breakdown of her and I.
Fwiw I have pretty severe ADHD and somewhat mild autism.
My best advice is that one doesn’t need an explanation for emotions. Focus on needs. I second the ‘is this good/bad/neutral’ that someone suggested. I would like to add that I would focus on NEEDS rather than what the feeling is.
Examples:
‘would you like to be alone right now? Do you want me here?’
‘would you like to be held?’
Even simple ones like ‘lights on or off?’
Maybe together you can learn what situations can be helped by what reaction/strategy. E.g. when I’m overwhelmed, I like it when the lights are off and my partner sorta lies on me like a weighted blanket.
With physical intimacy, she sounds a bit like me; it can be hard to know what you want. My strategy is to ask to try sth, then as it’s happening, check in to see how it feels. I’ve told my partner to do it like this.
Example:
‘would you like to try holdingy hand?’
If it’s a yes, do it, then after a few seconds:
‘is this ok? Do you like it?’
If either of you don’t want to or can’t talk well in these situations, you can designate a non verbal signal, like asking and nodding, or guiding someone’s hand, then looking at them, and they nod to signal consent.
Honestly, I act like this in intimacy with non autistic people too. It’s good consent practice. At worst, they’re like ‘yes yes get on with it’.
Hope my ramblings help at all, lol. You sound like a sweet and attentive partner. All the best and feel free to ask further questions.