New father here as well. Let me start by saying, please ignore any negative comments, they are shitty or non-parents. I see some terrible responses here.

Here’s what I see: a responsible kickass father is owning up to this huge lifestyle change, giving 110% to his wife and son, doing a perfect job emotionally and physically - service with everything but the smile. A mom going through post-partum depression, which is not only normal, it’s actually abnormal not to. You’re also going through something like “post-partum depression”, which is also not your fault at all and totally normal. Seek help for yourself too, and remember this will all pass. You need support from your wife as well - and sometimes giving support is the greatest way to feel acknowledged, you may be doing her a favor to dump on her (and yes, I know your time to converse is like minutes per day). You’re in the hardest phase and we all feel exactly the same way. It gets so much easier so quickly.

As for the sounds, I’m very, very sensitive to crying so I suggest ear protection like over-ear headset + earplugs or ear pods with white noise playing. Trust me, you don’t need to hear the crying to be a responsive parent. I use physical cues like vibration, facial expressions, physical movement, etc like a deaf parent, and I use and audio monitor too to physically see the sounds. This makes me 1000x more functional and responsive.

As for not feeling the “connection” (yet!), that is textbook post-partum and again, super normal. Your guilt/anger/depression at lacking that connection, feeling lonely and unsupported - these are textbook normal things. Newborn parenting is fucking hard. In pre-history infant mortality was crazy and there was 10 adults per newborn, we’re not meant to do any of this. If you exit this with 30 fingers and toes you’re smashing it. I think in time you’ll be able to enjoy it once you are sleeping, eating, and not completely overwhelmed. It could be years, but you know that. In the mean time, wish you (and I) luck to surviving…

There are too many things wrong in this entire situation.

If you did not want children, you should not had let your partner pressure you into it. And that 5 figure she wanted tells me she was indoctrinated to be a brood mare, not an independent woman.

Have you tried your best? Are you still trying? Yes. But I risk things will only get worst in the future between you and your partner. Respect was broken; that is the worst that can happen in a relationship.

Regarding the child - and I am going to be cold and cruel here: man up.

That child did not ask to be conceived and born. Their entire world is you - again, because regardless your state of mind, you seem a lot more involved than the mother - and even though the connection isn’t there, consider it a duty towards a completely defenceless human being. I’m not telling you to love them but to protect and care for them as if you were in their situation: show kindness and respect.

Which you seem to be showing and makes you a bigger human being.

There is no magic solution for this situation. Sincerely speaking, it wasn’t the right time for that child to be born, if ever, but they’re here now. Find a solution as adults.

I wish I could spare some face to face time to hear you out and give some real support but I fear we live in too far away parts of the world for that to happen.

Be brave and be honest, just like you’ve been doing and done here.

I feel bad about saying this, and this is more for other people, but don’t let other people’s expectations push you into having kids. If your partner wanted five kids and you didn’t even know if you wanted one, you were incompatible and you should have ended things once you discussed this like responsible adults. Instead you brought someone else into the world who may suffer just so you could try it out.

I’m not saying this to say you’re a bad person. Honestly, this wouldn’t happen to a bad person probably. You’re a good person who let expectations push you into a position you didn’t belong.

As others say, you may end up bonding with them later, and that will be great. They won’t be a baby forever, and also you’re really tired and probably grumpy right now. That’s all fair. I hope for your kid that things work out, but for anyone else reading this, if you don’t agree on children with your partner, it’s time to find someone else. That’s a fundamental thing that needs to be the same. It’s like if you want to be monogamous but your partner doesn’t. That’s just not going to work. There are some things that you just need to share or break up. It doesn’t make you bad for doing so. Also, yes, it’ll hurt and suck, but it’s the responsible thing to do.

If somebody doesn’t want kids, they should never let anyone talk them into it.

I don’t want kids and I always get weird looks from family and friends but I don’t care.

Situation in the world is terrible and on top of that I know that I wouldn’t be a good parent.

Dad of a toddler with another on the way (mostly mentioning it because my experience with a newborn is relatively recent in memory). A lot to unpack here. First of all, breathe. It’ll be okay.

While it certainly sounds like having a kid wasn’t what you wanted and it probably wasn’t the right decision, it’s the one you made, so the focus now should be on how best to help you, your wife, and your child.

The good news is the absolute hardest part of raising a kid, especially your first, is the newborn stage. It gets a little bit easier with every week that passes. Sleep deprivation is a bitch and frankly, I wouldn’t put too much stock in your emotions because in all likelihood, they are probably pretty out of wack right now. I remember inexplicably sobbing at 3 in the morning (while trying to get my son back to sleep) because I was so tired. It made no sense, but I was just exhausted.

As for the crying, it may not help you, but I find it helpful to recognize a baby crying for what it actually is: a communication tool. In fact, it’s the one of the only communication tools a newborn has. When they cry, they are doing their job and telling you they have a need that needs to be met. So instead of getting irritated when they cry, you basically just run through a checklist of possible things they need, and try them out until you figure out what it is they needed. Fortunately the list of things they need at this stage are pretty simple: it’s almost always food, sleep, or possibly a diaper (my son did not care one bit about dirty diapers though, heh). Sometimes it also might be something else like overstimulation. But it’s never really inexplicable and you can learn their specific cues to more quickly narrow down what they need. You can also often prevent crying by paying attention to their non-verbal communication before they start crying: e.g, a baby will do things like rooting or sticking out their tongue when they are hungry well before they start crying for food, or get pinkness around their eyes when they are tired.

You absolutely should first and foremost try to get whatever help you can get from family and friends, if you can. It helps immensely to have a support system to lean on, even if it’s something as simple as helping with cleaning or just giving you guys a break (especially important to make time for each other, too).

As for bonding, this is going to sound a bit odd, but it’s really worth trying. Something they teach you in childbirth classes is that spending extended amounts of time doing skin to skin contact with your baby (so shirt off for you, diaper only for the baby) is really valuable for bonding (even for dads), and from personal experience I can say this is true. I did it a number of times in my son’s first few weeks and it definitely made a difference. It’s basically a chemical effect on you and your baby’s brain chemistry and it is pretty powerful. It’s also the same for mothers and babies and it’s why hospitals will have mother and baby do immediate skin contact as soon as they are born. I think it really helps you appreciate what it is that you have now.

The other thing is that your relationship with your kid is something that grows with time, especially as they get older and more interactive. It takes a few months for them to start smiling and laughing at you, and honestly once they do (and you can make them laugh), it’s a game changer. It’s so much fun, and just gets more fun as they get older.

As for your wife, you may already know this, but she’s likely experiencing post-partum depression. What she’s feeling are real feelings, but likely not based on anything rational. Human brains are just weird little things. Massive hormonal changes really fucks with brain chemistry and makes a lot of new moms have really uncharacteristic mood and behavior. Her system has been flooded with all sorts of shit for the last 9 months and giving birth is where it all comes crashing down. It’s not uncommon to prescribe anti-depressants temporarily to help new moms until things start to balance out again. Also, she should really get off TikTok/Instagram. That shit is toxic as fuck and WILL make you unhappy.

And, if it helps: there’s so much garbage information out there for new parents and it’s really fucking hard to figure out what’s good advice or not. Here’s the real deal about breastfeeding: it is by no means a requirement. Not even close. Yes, it has some benefits if you can do it, and it’s worth trying. But it is massively, and I mean MASSIVELY overblown on the internet. Pumping is perfectly fine, and many mothers do it exclusively (my sister-in-law mostly did, in fact). Formula is also perfectly fine. And a baby falling asleep while eating is REALLY FUCKING NORMAL, especially after they are just born! That being said, it can be helpful to try to start a pattern of offering food as soon as they wake up, if you aren’t already, since they’ll be most alert then and more likely to get more milk that way.

Part of being a new parent is learning to tune all that stupid shit out and make decisions for your baby based solely on what your pediatrician says and your own judgement. Even your own parents’ advice should be taken with a huge grain of salt, both because their experience is very out of date (AAP recommendations have changed a lot over the years) and they can’t remember what it was actually like very well. It’s something I wish I could go back and tell our past selves.

And props to her on the milk supply, that’s no easy feat. Guard it well and try not to waste any of it, because overproduction is typically only temporary until her body adjusts to your baby’s actual needs. Always try to restock what you use as much as possible. Oh, and keep an eye out for mastitis (clogged milk ducts that get infected). It’s super easy to get in the initial period of overproduction, because the breasts are frequently fuller than the baby actually needs, and prolonged full breasts can clog easily. Mastitis can easily burn through your supply (it can make it so the baby can’t easily get milk, and it takes time to clear up with antibiotics).

Anyway, hang in there. Newborns are the hardest and it does get a lot easier and more fun/rewarding.

Struggling to find a connection is normal for a first-time dad. As I get bigger and they start taking on attributes you’ll find there a reflection of you and that’s really cool and it’s really rewarding to see your energy that you put into a child bloom and grow.

Like everyone else has already said, perfectly normal for a Dad this early in the game and sadly for a Mum too. You will likely only see them as a crying poop machine at this age, sapping your life force away.

I guarantee that will change. How strongly and what to, I can’t say but it will. Took me just over a year. Once they started walking, smiling, saying my name and then I really got into when I started taking days off to take them into town or to a park. Just seeing the smile and excitement on their face and hearing them saying thank you, the hardship was worth it!

Some advice though - I would be open with your wife. It’s easy to try and suck it up and do everything to support her because she has had a baby and is struggling to, right? Sure, but it is a team effort. Have a chat about whether there is a happier medium that makes dealing with the hardships more equal. For example, we took it in 3 hour shifts at night to see to the babybfor a long time so the other could get some interrupted sleep.

Parenthood, especially early on, is a trial! It will be that way until they become and adult and move out. The trial changes everyday. If it isn’t poop, it’s mood swings as they get older or tantrums.

All I can say is, as they get older, go out of your way to make time for you and them to bond and just maybe it all feels worth it. It has for me, wouldn’t have it any other way.

I can see you have already gotten a lot of good advice, but I’m still going to share my story

For a man, getting a child is boring as fuck the first half a year. That’s just how it’s. Most mom’s essentially gets a head start on bonding with the kid by being pregnant. And its super normal not feeling anything, it just takes time. Just do your best getting as much skin-to-skin contact, I think it helps with the bonding. And its super important for the child, so win-win. If you do it mostly while they’re sleeping, you can watch tv, look at your phone. And if you have one of those gaming chairs that recline all the way back, you can even play computer if you’re into that.

Then we wanted another kid, and after like half a year my wife got pregnant again, and we’re where super glad. But I think a couple of months before the kid came out, I got postpartum depression. And I fucking hated my own kid, I could not stand her. And wanted nothing to do with her. I half remember not wanting anything to do with the baby, but honestly everything is a haze from that period.

In the end, I think after half a year, my wife gave me a ultimatum, either I seek professional help or we breakup and I leave for good. And that was the kicker for me half realising I needed help. Lucky at the time, I was 24 years old. And therapy is free when you’re under 25, as we had no money.

I think I went to therapy for a couple of months, and luckily I was slowly getting better.

Now it’s about 3 years later, I don’t have an inch of depression anymore, and I love my kids more than anything.

Last month we just got our third kid, a now it’s way easier bonding with her, because I already know what it entails. But it’s still true, it’s boring as fuck, she just lays there, and don’t do much of anything.

But every month something new happens, and it’s gets just a little better.

My other kids are now 3 and 5, and they’re the most fun I have ever had with them. I pretend to be s monster and I chase them around, and they running and screaming for their life, while laughing their ass of! it’s honestly one of the best feeling and I love it.

But I won’t pretend everything is good. We still have to raise them, and it’s still hard work everyday! And a lot of time, it’s not fun getting angry at your kids, because they straight up just don’t listen to you.

All I wanted to say, at first, it just seems like ekstra work and it’s! But over the next couple years, when they start becoming an actual human, and you can start playing with them. That’s when all the work starts paying off. And Luckily time goes fast when you get kids, almost too fast. And now my oldest is starting school next year, and I already feel like I’m not ready for her to grow up that much!

It will definitely get better, it just takes time, and everything you’re feeling, is valid and normal. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!

And please just ask if you would like to know anything, or want me to elaborate, if I have explained something badly. I wrote everything on mobile, so sry for formatting or spelling mistakes.

You started your post by saying you didn’t want kids. That’s why you’re struggling. Your wife made you go against your values and now you have a huge responsibility.

I don’t care for people in their larval stages either. I’ve never found babies cute and the sound of crying makes me angry, not sympathetic

What is fun though, is experiencing the world fresh through their eyes as they get older and develop the ability to communicate, and shifting some goals and focus to create great experiences for them

5 kids is fucking crazy though especially in the world today, Jesus

I didn’t want kids. Shit happened. It took about 18 months for me to feel anything for my kid. Those 18 months were a war against sleep deprivation and time deprivation. The wife left a year or two later. Left my kid with me. Single dad shit for the next, well, going on 25 years now. It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. I’m still sick with guilt bringing a kid into this fucked up world, but I love my kid.

This doesn’t help you, but I also got a vasectomy about 6 months after he was born. I should have done it earlier. My advice to anyone is, don’t have fucking kids. Get a vasectomy ASAP and live your life. Unless you come from big time old money, or get incredibly lucky, kids just add incredible stress and money drain for a minimum of a couple of decades.

It gets easier. The first 3 months are absolutely terrible.

Dad to dad, you’ll feel the bond when the kid becomes more interactive and rational. Moms can connect that little blob with no problem. It’s tougher for dads, at first. It all balances out though. What you are feeling is normal. Just stick with it and don’t cheat on your wife.

The number one piece of advice a number of dads have given me is: if you don’t want kids, don’t have kids. I would add to this: if you don’t feel ready for kids, don’t have kids. And your situation is exactly why this advice applies.

I recommend leaning on your social networks for help with childcare. Your mom likes the baby? Great! She can take care of them 2 nights per week while you catch up on everything and find some sanity.

Your wife forced you to have a baby. Force her to seek more help. Recruit her friends and family if you need to. She wanted this, but you are doing all the work. She needs to get her shit together so she can help out.

Sorry dude, but you’ve basically blown up your life for the next decade. If you don’t really like the kid by then, probably the best case is to get a divorce and bounce. Pay child support. Take the kid in a cool trip once per year. Then you can live the life you want, and the kid won’t go through puberty with a dad who resents them around all the time.

I really want to love this kid and being a dad but at this point it’s a job and I hate my job even though I’m killing it in the effort game.

You will love your kid, don’t worry about that. Maybe you already do. There is no ah-ha moment, so it’s hard to tell. It’s not the same feeling as loving a significant other or a parent. It’s something else entirely and you’ve never experienced it before, you probably don’t realize you have it. My wife was the same way, took her a bit, but she loves it now.

You are killing it in the effort game. You’ve done an amazing job so far. Frankly, if what you say is true, you’re making most of us look pretty bad, myself included. Be proud. Also get your mom to help. From an evolutionary perspective, that’s what grandmas are for, so don’t feel bad asking for help.

I never truly wanted to have a kid for a whole list of reasons including climate change, growing instability, feeling like I already don’t have time to do the things I want to do, not feeling like I have my shit together (on paper I do, but I don’t feel like that), not understanding what it means to be “happy”…stuff like that.

First, you’re exactly the type of person who should be having a kid. So many intelligent, good, empathetic, introspective people choose not to have kids because of the reasons you listed, but let’s be honest, they’re scared little bitches. You’re not one of them anymore. You have a living, breathing stake in the future and you have your shit together because you had a kid on purpose. Could your shit be more together? Perhaps. Does it need to be? No. Your shit is good enough. People in worse situations have kids and it works out.

If you and people like you didn’t have kids, then the only people having kids would be… bad. It would be bad and we can’t have that. So thank you, there will now likely be another good, intelligent, empathetic, and introspective person to take your place someday.

Second, I don’t know what it means to be happy either but I don’t care. I think that makes me happy in some way. But who knows, all I know is I’m not sad, and that’s good enough for me.

Third, you’ll be able to do the things you want to do. Things are a bit busy at the moment but as others have said it’ll get easier. Your wife will continue to recover (but beware post partium depression) and your kid will get more and more capable. It happens fast.

Lastly, ask yourself why the crying bothers you so much? If it’s just the volume, then wear ear protection. That helped me. If it’s not the volume, then what is it?