I have excuses, but im fucking up.

I want to run away, off my self, whatever. I can’t, I wont do that to my kids. But I think about it a lot.

My patience is getting shorter and shorter. Again, I have excuses and maybe id give myself grace but im not getting better im getting worse.

I don’t see how I fit into my life besides my kids. Everything else is just me doing what I feel like im supposed to do.

I just caused a big fight calling out my wife for shit she’s not doing when she has to deal with me being a slug. I cant say shit, or at least I shouldnt but she asked me or alluded to me doing something I cant do easily because of my foot injury and she knows it and I got defensive and got on her about her shit. It blew up.

I not getting at anything here just trying to get it off my chest

  • CrypticCoffee@lemmy.mlEnglish
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    19 days ago

    Don’t beat yourself up, but observe and ask yourself how you can do differently. Beating yourself up won’t help. Don’t expect yourself to be perfect, just find ways you can be your best you.

    Kids test patience. You have to find ways to keep yourself calm. Even if it’s stepping out for 5 mins and asking your wife to step in.

    Raising kids is teamwork. Find what you can do, or how you can help to share the work burden. If your patience isn’t good, maybe some cooking to help while getting a break from kids.

    Patience can be a result of poor mental health. It’s the foundation you build from. Find ways you can improve it. What’s bringing you down? What can help pick up your mood.