Preserving life is the normal condition, desire for suicide is a malfunction.

Stuff like death anxiety or the call of the void is very common. It is the human brain’s way of telling us what not to do so that we can keep living since all animals have a very strong survival instinct. It takes time to get used to it, but it will happen.

i eventually came to a point at which i care about making appointments with the dentist regularly. (not good care, but you know). it was a long way since i started the process of “ok let’s try this living for a while, what needs to change to make it viable?”

of course this didn’t look nearly as optimistic in the beginning. it was rather doomy. but there is a place for all of us, and there are people that can help finding it. my anxiety is still with me but i can manage it better, i feel. i’m glad you got on the way. :)

I experience this. I started writing and it seems to help