I have a cold but despite that I am feeling upbeat and hopeful

Had two very nice appointments today in nice weather.

Went walkies with a very neurospicy client and it was a lot easier for them to open up and talk about their needs because we were doing stuff instead of sitting in an office.

Went to a new clients home who loved my laptop stickers and decided I am ok to open up to partly because of them. I am the only one in my workplace who has any and get some looks sometimes, but they are clearly liked by those that matter to me. I have one that just says “solidarity” and its a good conversation starter.

I again feel like I might not be that bad at my job.

So not a bad day at all. Got all my steps in while at work, saw the sun for the first time in weeks, met wonderful neurospicy humans and feel a lot better, been kind of down lately.

It’s been exhausting, but over the past few weeks I’ve locked in like never before in college to study for and write three really good essays

I’m getting fibre internet!

I live rurally in Canada. I’m 20 minutes outside the largest centre in my province, which is a mid sized city, on a farm surrounded by farms. However this company is laying lines to a small town and their path goes <2 kms from us so we qualify. They bring it to my house for free, and they’ll give me a deal for the first 6 months of a 2 year contract!

I’m so happy to be ditching Starlink. I’m aware of all the criticisms and I’ve hated Elon for years before the libs realized he’s a fascist, but truly my only other option offers 50 kbps download but I’ll be lucky to get 15, and the internet cuts out in any sort of weather. Starlink enabled me to work from home part time (all we’re allowed) and has given me pretty reliable internet but it’s getting worse and with the company gone pubic it will continue to worsen significantly as time goes on.

Anyway, now I don’t need to worry about it! I’ll be getting fibre that’s 3x the speed for less money. I can stop worrying about Elon tracking my every move on the internet despite my VPN use, and I can get my money back for the starlink equipment! My only complaint is that it’s a private company running the fibre when we have a publicly owned telecommunication company that should be doing it instead, but we keep electing shitty governments that do their best to destroy anything decent here.

My weed plants are almost tall enough to look me in the eye. You could hide inside them like Agent 47

Realized something nice this morning. While my heightened sense of empathy leads to a lot of pain, it also results in me having very few regrets. I could keel over and die/spontaneously combust, whatever death method, right now and I would be happy with the legacy I left behind. I remember being 19 and listening to Fight Test by The Flaming Lips and deciding that I’d never fence sit again. I could still see nuance in situations, and have empathy for people/movements I’m working against, but that was the moment I stopped using nuance as an excuse for inaction. A line from one of my favorite rappers is “Speaking from my own mouth before I let the time tell” and I stand by that

Late autumn is the best time of the year. Crisp, cool air. If the sun is out it is beautiful outside, if it is cloudy/rainy it is comfy inside. The leaves are beautiful, the crunchy sound of walking on leaves that are on the ground is so satisfying. Coffee and tea taste much better with weather and vibe like this.

I am now living in New Zealand it is cold please send spicy corn chippies

My parents are so supportive of my weird little hobbies! I mentioned i was gonna make a gunpla diorama as a gift for my work pal who started the show. I asked him what I should do with my grunt Zaku 2 and he suggested stabbed with a beam saber through the cockpit like the first episode. Which means i would need another rx78 as well. But it is a sick idea and I have cool plans to make it look really good. They asked for box pics and then just went and bought em for me. They really like that i’m good at art stuff and while i’m sure they wished i had or would find a way to make money off it, they’re just hyped i’m good at making stuff. They’re just generally chill people in general too.

Found this cuttie looking meditative near the Kutubiyya Mosque in Marrakech

Halloween is so cute when there’s kids involved. Seeing pure joy and innocence really pushes back the bad thoughts and makes me feel nice

Migraine free for months I think I’m in the clear. The last 2 years were rough as fuck I’m glad I feel like I’m at the end of this episode of my life.

Union interview this Thursday, came at a good time since I quit my job last month. Finally HVACR time gonna do something I love and have decent pay and benefits. 5 years of work as an apprentice and I’ll have a career no more shitty minimum wage or financial insecurity

Fuck yeah its back. This month i got drunk sometimes and played valheim with my friends. It was thoroughly enjoyable and I love them. We are going to ren faire soon and I am excited

Here is my cat :3

So much of the headline news in my life is bittersweet or objectionable it’s hard to even think of something to post here.

I’ve made a new friend with whom I’ve been playing a lot of Raft. If you remember that friendslop game where you start on a 2x2 square raft in the middle of the ocean. You have hooks to gather trash and expand your ride. You end up eventually making a radio and through that come to find there’s a narrative to follow throughout the world.

I expected to play it once so that I could talk to them before continuing a relationship. They ended up really liking the game. One day we’re getting ready to play and they ping me like “I had trouble sleeping and then I found creative mode, come check this out.” They had designed a 3 story yacht with rooms, an indoor-outdoor system and engines on the boat. It was unbelievable.

So over the next 50+ hours we proceed to finish the story and get to work turning the ship into their dream ship. We made a kitchen, a sofa in front of a fireplace, an engine room, a bedroom, a navigation helm, and a rooftop where we keep all the animals, bees, and trees.

The once overwhelming tasks of navigating a big island with hostile mobs on it turns into background noise as we discuss what to spend our rapidly accumulating currency on. In fact, we sought out the island because it pinged on our radar and we knew we needed stuff from around the reef.

The chances of me bothering with this game without them was slim to none, and the chance of me going into creative and coming out with a vision for design+interior design are so laughable it’s not worth consideration. But instead I get to think about how to make a vision possible and that’s my favorite.